all i wanted is someone who can protect me. keep me under his shield. treat me like a flower. shower me with water everyday. n on top of all that...someone who understands me for who i m.mayb its too fast. mayb im expecting too much..or isit too little?

argh! my life is a mess again. cant stand it anymore. werk is pilling up. new responsibilities adding on to the old ones. no life at all. werk werk werk... i miss my life. chill non stop in sch. life changes too drastically fer me. i cant take d change. argh!!!!!!!!!!! i want mail. i want him so bad. jus wanna b in his arms. i lost my sense of security. back den, everything seems to be gone wen im in tat arms. so wat happen? well i jus have to blame myself for not being patient enuff.

guess its my retribution. now i realise tat people always wan us to treasure our love ones. we din expect out lifes wld cross. we almost met back in sec, i knew his classmate but nothing happen. den our path cross again in poly. something finally happen for a very long time. those times were d best days of my life. but me, being d childish self & not wantin to mature, made a damn stupid mistake by letting him go. n now i regret. regret for being so stupid. don think any werd can describe my action.

ive hurt him for upteen number of times while he was so patient wit me. y? y was i so damn scared back den? coz i knew tat i mite play behind him? geesh..i love him so much. its hurtin me now. if i tell yana, she wil screw me upside down. so do d rest of the gals. i noe im playin wid alfred. i dowan tat too. i don want to hurt him further. so should i give him another chance to prove himself?

gosh i cant decide. mayb its time tat i started prayin again. my mind is always block n have problems wen i stop praying. guess god is stil d powerful one. hopefully i can get my answers soon..
[ Sat Jan 24, 11:30:27 PM | *LadY HaCKwReNcH* | edit ]
perfection is juz but a perception
treasure wad u hv at this moment
is the most impt thing in life
b4 it slips away frm u....
dun live ur life wuf regrets!

it's the heart dat's afraid of breaking, dat nv learns 2 dance.
it's the dream dat's afraid of waking, dat nv takes chance.
it's the one who always takes, who cannot seem 2 give.
& it's the soul dat's afraid of dying, dat nv learns 2 live.

when the nite has been 2 lonely & the road has been 2 long,
& u tink dat luv's only 4 the lucky & strong,
juz remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows,
lies a seed which wif the sun's luv in the spring,
becums a rose....



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