::: Homely Analytical Nonsensical Intuitive Lady otherwise known as Systematic Arrogant Hackwrench :::

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

ALL GONE...STIL D GRUMPY OLE WOMAN...WHO GONNA LIVE ALONE ALL THRUOUT HER LIFE...

ya peeps..tats me. forever searching. til i dono wat im searchin. den i tot i found it..but then i lost it. thus in the end...its like sand thru my fingers...unable to put inside the hour glass...

wat crap m i talkin abt...aiz so stress..so sian..so depressed...

newai i went to see my tutor for my next monday assignment deadline. she gave me the guidelines to work on. but somehow, im jus stil not motivated to work on it yet. im sleepy. i wasted time again jus now by watchin tv. desperate housewives..cant miss it..hehehe...

so here i am..once again...in front of this lappie..tryin to do work..while my eyes r soooooooo heavy....its almost 1am now...i think i shud take a nap den continue later on....but i scared once i konked out..i konked out till monin...aiz...n d whole bloddy house smell of fried oil...aiz..c la..while watchin tv, i go n fry the jemput2..now the whole house smell. me myself stil smell of it..though ive showered...now im nauseous...isit the correct spelling...i hate to deep fry down here cos it takes bloddy long to do it n d ventilation sux..so we open the apartment's main door as well as the balcony door..but no matter wat..it stil smells...i've like sprayed my can of refreshner but it don seems to help either...i think i need to buy febreeze wen im back in sg..its gd for the upholstry...

ok enuf of my borin life...as if its interesting cos i find it mundane. life aint great either...to me now la...so many downs n so little ups...every single small thing now amuse me..gosh i feel like my sister...

i noe its not good to regret...reminisence on the past is gd at times...but let bygones be bygones...u cant change the past. all of us hav our regrets. but its how u open urself up n be true to urself...cant be livin in the past forever....let others get to u...wid more people in ur life, u can b a better person. n b more happy n contented...

yah rite..by sayin all tat, i dono if im consolin myself or him...i guess it applies to both of us.

M: im sorry for being the bi*** in ur life. i left u wen u needed support. i noe its hard esp wen ive always been ard for u. its gd to noe ur pickin up ur life. but pls, don hurt people like wat i did to u. u noe how d pain is...

D: im sorry to hear d news of ur inner thots n feelins. i reli dono how to react. after all those things we went thru, things hav to be this way. i noe i cant replace her in ur life. but u gotta move on. its painful but u hav got to do it...but i noe i cant force u...

in times like tis is wen i wish i cud turn back the hands of time. to those times wen things r simple n purely fun...wen everyone was happy...so we don have to b in this situation now...

if i cud turn back time...i wud go back to those days in 2000....at the turn of the new century...wher my life starts to be filled wid so much love n laughter than eva...n how i wish i cud do things better..improvised on life...

well its jus a wish..no use wishin oso cos it can neva come true...jolly well wake up n live ur life as uve choosen now...no use regretting....

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