::: Homely Analytical Nonsensical Intuitive Lady otherwise known as Systematic Arrogant Hackwrench :::

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

ive not blogged for the past few days. been bz. had my presentation on monday. i hope it was fine though we had technical faults. kinda felt gd cos the slides 'wowed' them...anyway went for lin's engagement party on sun nite. yups..linny is engaged!! went to a japanese rest n had sukiyaki..will try to post some pics taken tat nite. wuhoo..the wedding shud b in april if all works out fine..hopefully i can b a part of both weddings in sg n oz..but have a feelin i wud onli b involve in oz one..ahaha cos im stil stuck here.

anyway..people can reli change overnite. or mayb some of us hide our feelings so well that we managed to fool the other party...i cant seem to express my feelings rite now but all tis poems ive pasted..reflects wat im feelin now..hopefully he can read them too..but then, i cant force him to love me. no matter wat i can neva replace someone in his life. or mayb his love for me began to grow n let go of her..but jus tat time is not on our side. i had to leave him alone..n he went the wrong way again...aiz..

well i guess its back to square one..i guess if my presence in july don meant anything n stil cant change nething, i gues its better for me to move on. hurt n battered again...but i have to move on cos its not at the end of the world. my life has jus began. a brand new me.....

Persist© Nicole Wickham

Dreams don't always come true
and that I have to accept.
But you were so much better
than all the rest.
You always cared
and you always loved.
You were always there
when push came to shove.
I wanted so badly to have you near.
But it's someone else
who you hold dear.

"Persist" you once told me
"Cause your dream might come true".
But when you gave me this advice
Did you know that my dream was you?
Sometimes I think you did
But then I'm not so sure.
It doesn't really matter anyway
Cause your advice I chose to ignore.

How could I persist
Once I knew the truth?
I couldn't even pretend to not know
Cause you'd given me the proof.
I dealt with it the best I could
And tried to hide my feelings from you.

But deep down inside of me
I am sure that you still knew.
So now I just sit and wait
And check the mail each day.
I hope that you are home real soon
Cause it's been lonely with you away.

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