::: Homely Analytical Nonsensical Intuitive Lady otherwise known as Systematic Arrogant Hackwrench :::

Sunday, September 25, 2005

sometimes all things we do are those crazy things haha..well i was reflecting on life again. din post anything on blog cos its rather personal neither did i put it up on flay too. anyway having a blog to me is a way of connecting to my family. my bro reads my blog n tells my dad wat happens. u noe la i always cant really connect to my parents.

yup we sure did grow up. life problems right now seems to be more heavily responsibility involved. not sure if all of u r feeling that way but i really am rite now. watever decision i make, its gonna reflect my future. im way over daffi rite now. i deserve someone better than him. someone who can appreciate me for who i m and accept my faults n weaknesses and thus complements me. i dont need someone to complete me. if i continue the drive n determination, im sure i will turn out fine. hey i did it for my o's n diploma level..y cant i do it again..i noe ive never been the super straight As kinda student. jus average mostly but im happy wid myself cos along the way i learnt something new. life learning experience which i think no school can teach us.

being in oz really taught me abt independent. ive never realise that ive been so dependant on my parents, siblings, friends esp u guys. yes we do have our ups n downs. mostly its down cos its natural wen ur unhappy u tend to brood over it n not overcome it. after talking to daffi tat time, i realised that my life aint that bad afterall. i mean im stil optimistic abt certain things in life. continue being optimistic n u will suceed.

ok jus wanna share this info wid u guys. i finally got a job. its gonna be at royal on the park, co-owned by sultan of brunei (sg has royal plaza on scotts). however i have no idea on how to cope with it right now. another roughly 4 wks plus to exams, 3 deadlines to go, 4 quizzes to do until im done with this semester. i guess if i flunked any, i will need to redo over summer. which means tat i wont b back for long break. im tryin to save some money to go for hols with u guys. over wkend kinda thing seems fun. batam hmm nice..its been a long time since i went there. or we could even go up to kl or some beach resort in malaysia.

it all depends on this semester. if i go thru well, i mite be headin home during jan. otherwise u wil onli see me next july. but then depends also if im taking any additional subject. im considering a double major rite now. discussing with my advisor wid regards to tat. so if i am, i mite be here till next yr. hopefully this job works out well for me so that i can stay here for another yr.

right now the only motivation for me to head home is amir. i will come home for a while. but i guess its time for me to pursue my dream. if im offered a full time position by jun next yr, i can continue my education without worry cos i will be here on working fulltime visa instead of student visa. that means i can only take 1 subject n not 3 subjects (i need 3 subjects in order to have student visa, otherwise im an illegal visitor). it will ease my dad's burden n all. but then i need to earn at least A$3340 per mth as start off pay which means i need to go straight into mgr position. haiz..cla how..it depends on my performance now also.

ok ive been typin too much already. need to start on my essay right now. tmr im headin up to towoomba for some flower exhibition thingy with some of my frens n also visit lin n brendan. den monday mite be goin for sand dune skiing but not sure cos some of us r kinda broke. worse come to worse, we shall jus head down to surfers paradise one of this days to laze ard..haha..but i need to catch up on work this wk also. haiz so many things to do so lil time!..

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