::: Homely Analytical Nonsensical Intuitive Lady otherwise known as Systematic Arrogant Hackwrench :::

Friday, March 10, 2006

ok before everything went berserk again. let me post all my past stuffs..so sorry if its abit too long haha

my long delayed resolutions...

Entry supposed to be on Tuesday, 20dec05
2006 Resolutions

Today’s forum was bad. Cos it makes me think and feel bad. Sorry guys but tts how I felt. Somehow when razi asked me not to look so sad, its actually how I felt. Meeting the 3 of us makes me feel sad. All of us seems to b bad in relationships. Haiz makes me feel pathetic.

Yes yana..u wanna noe how I felt when I first heard the news. I found out thru his frenster. I was speechless. Afterall it was jus only 5mths tt they have been together. But im happy tt finally he found love again. At least if he cant b happy with me, he found someone who can make him happy again. Hopefully she treasure him and not take advantage instead. We talked via msn tt day. She seems like a nice gal. quite shock tt he wanted me to b included in their conversation. He did told her tt I used to like him. But somehow I feels tt hes not tellin her the full truth. Well nvm along the way she would find out too. As long as he din say anything bad abt me, I don mind keepin secrets.

This time ard I feel queer and weird comin back to sg. Haiz…mayb all I wanna come back for is my family. Last time it was inclusive of him. Shucks I agree wid u guys. Love can either make or break us. At the moment, tt kind of love is breakin me up. Hmm lucky I have family love which is forever and ever thus tts wats keeping me alive.

Ok ive given enough thoughts into my resolutions and time plan. So here it goes…

2006 Resolutions
-Be more healthy! Haha yes finally ive decided to lose weight haha
-Last day of bad air will be on 31 December 2006
-Hold the piece of paper stating that I have Bachelor in Business Management Major in Hospitality and Event Management
-Be more open with my parents of my thoughts and feelings.
-Wearing the Graduation gown and taking pictures with my family. I want a pic where my bro and sis is wearing theirs too. A whole family picture of 5 of us, proud parents sitting down while 3 of us standing behind them with wide smiles on our all our faces.
-Getting a job in Australia for 2007. Thinking of going to Melbourne or Adelaide to work. Perth would be cool too. Fish n Co opened there already..hmm
-Putting myself before others. Sick and tired of being used by people to their advantage.
-Back into my competitive side again.
I think 8 resolutions is a lot to accomplish right in one year? Well jus have to do it…hehe 8 is a lucky number wat.. =)

Entry on 31Dec2005...yes it took me almost 3 mths to finally post it haha
Tribute to 2005

Life changing year for me. Opened my eyes to wider perspective.

Jan 2005
Mum n dad went for haj. I was preparing for my departure. Had a heavy heart in leavin gd ole sunny sg for the sunshine state of OZ, brissy. Had to leave my workplace which ive grown to love the job though I hate the long hrs at times. Facing challenges each day of my life which makes me remind myself not to be a demanding bride if I ever get married.

Feb 2005
Finally im leaving sg for good one year. Cant wait to run away from the hustle bustle of life here in sg. Finally I’m having my FREEDOM!! I could fly as a bird..ok with the help of SQ la..but I also know the SACRIFICES my parents are going to face for the next 2yrs..
My sis announced that I will be having a NEPHEW of my own in August…gosh cant believe that the impt thing in my family and im not ard to receive it..ive waited 5 yr for it eversince my bro was engaged..haha ok I noe I shud start waiting when he got married…

Mar 2005
Still enjoying life in brissy though getting pissed with sch matters.

Apr 2005
Deadlines start nearing. Cant cope with being back in sch and living alone in a far away land. Start being homesick. Someone back home finally admits that the distance is killing us. I miss my best fren terribly! I wanna my mates here..Wonder Woman, Kecik and Zai..even Mills who was in the state across OZ felt so far away.

May 2005
Huge arguments between us. Him begging me to come home asap. Hitting the books hard after not studying for almost 2 yrs..so hard to have so many inputs at one time…

Jun 2005
After 2 yrs of not sitting for exams, I had 2 papers for my first semester. One wk interval in between. A lot of time to study but yet I was so scared and panic. As usual, I freaked out on the night before papers and continued till end of paper. Never was I so scared. Kinda remind me of those times in pri sch..i think it was in pri2 wen my form teacher was this fierce lady. Was so scared to go for exams in case I fail n she will scream at me. I wud cry the nite b4 and pls..it did happen again. Yes being a cry baby..but somehow I was jus so scared. I wanted to do well this time ard..n not dissappoint my parents like wat I did for PSLE..somemore wid the financial input this time ard..ive yet to pay my poly studies..
I felt so pathetic n homesick till my dad allowed me to come home for winter break. I was so delighted that the moment I saw the lights of tanah merah..my eyes started to swell. The moment the plane landed in sg, tears were streaming down my cheeks…im home!

Jul 2005
BACK IN SG FOR MY BDAE! Yes it was wonderful. Spend time wid my FLAYS and some sec sch mates who came along for the coffee session after dinner. Did some reflection on my life for the past 6 mths. Finally made a life changing decision and set my targets right.

Aug 2005
Back in brissy for the second sem. Determined to make the best of things. Went for a trip to Gold Coast, spent a weekend there with my cousin and his friends.
On 26 Aug 2005, another addition to my family. The long awaited nephew of mine was finally delivered via window cos he was too tall to go out the normal way. Never had I been so delighted. Ive been waiting for this moment ever since my bro announced tt hes getting engaged but had to wait till my sister got married n had one. Finally someone to spoil of my own.

Sep 2005
Started off Sept with a trip up to Sunshine Coast. Went to Macadamia Nut Factory, Buderim Ginger Factory as well as the Pineapple Farm. Ended the month with a trip up to Toowomba to visit Brendan’s Family home. Wuhoo I super duper love Toowomba. Despite all the trips I had a mid sem test for FM which I actually failed although I had a high distinction for the grp assignment. Guess I panic for the mid sem as per usual.

Oct 2005
Deadlines again. Going crazy as one of my subjects really pulled my morale down. Grp members sucks cos nobody wanted to become leader. The theory they had was tt leader does all the work but not to delegate! I din want to be d bossy one as im the only asian ard. This really taught me a lot abt working with angmohs. They can be of two extremes man. Suddenly I remembered those times when I was working. Follow ups and stuffs..thanks jeannie n sharul.

Nov 2005
Exams galore! Had 5 papers. First 3 papers was within 36 hrs in between. Crazy! Especially with financial management, hotel tech and bis law. Took my Fidelio course as the first step in stepping into Front Office. Left Brissy for Adelaide to visit Halim and Hafiz for the last few days of the mth till early dec.

Dec 2005
My first trip alone and literally I was alone travelling to Adelaide. Feeling of adrenaline into my blood. Adventurous and exploring things on my own. Wuhoo never I can describe it. My taste of having freedom…away from all with no worries of neither families nor boyfrens. First time in my life I went to catch crabs. Its been wonderful meeting new pple there.
Surprised my family upon my unexpected arrival. Boy wish I could see that faces again. But I cant do it often due to my dad’s heart condition.
Spent the last 2 wks of 2005 with family and close frens. Boy am glad Im home!

So with the end of 2005, it marks the ending of my 5 yr plan that started after I left sec sch. So did I managed to achieved wat I planned? Let’s look back…

2000 1st Yr poly
First full time working experiences
Tried relief teaching to see if I could make it as a teacher
Got into my first choice in Poly.

2001 2nd yr Poly
First year in Poly anniversary, first yr aniversary with M. =)
Met great frens that is gonna go thru life with me for a long time.

2002 3rd Yr Poly
First job in a hotel as an intern. Achievement to get into there esp when I started applying only 2 weeks prior to deadline and it was one of the 3 hotels tt ive always wanted to work for. Haha but the only hotel that ive submitted my resume. Fantastic!
Worked on Rocka project. A major life changing decision.

2003 Working Life
Graduated with a Diploma in Tourism Management.
Did relief teaching again while deciding on what step to take.
Worked part time also at Fish n Co.
Going back to Raffles to work as the Catering Sales Coordinator! Never had I imagined! Beginnings to my career as a wedding planner.

2004 Working Life
Wonderful yr in RH with wonderful pple. Truly enjoyed my days there. Learnt a lot from the different pple I met everyday. Din expect that I would b in that position for long time though but I stayed and learnt.
Lost M for the final time. Wish I could turn back the hands of time for this one.

2005 Back to sch for another journey in life
After almost 2 yrs of working, I decided to hit the books again to upgrade myself. Life in brissy away from all.

So I think I did well. I sticked to my plan. I had a paper, gained some experiences and met new pple along the way. So for the next 5 years, heres what I plan to do…

2006 : Bachelor in Business Management Graduate with a double major in hospitality and events mgmt
2007 : work in OZ
2008 : work in SG or overseas..looking into Malaysia too
2009 : work in SG and take part time Masters in NTU/Cornell, starting my business hopefully
2010 : Masters grad, working, having my own car and finally start lookin for a partner in life

So is it achievable? I think it is as long as I put my heart n soul into it… sorry mum, guess by then amir would have more siblings but no cousins yet. Hehe…so tts my plan for the next 5 yrs. Don’t ask me abt marriage until 2010…

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