::: Homely Analytical Nonsensical Intuitive Lady otherwise known as Systematic Arrogant Hackwrench :::

Thursday, June 08, 2006

self-actualisation...hmm ...

I realised what has been going wrong for the past few years. After reading half of the chapter on Habit 3: Put First Things First, I realised that I have been travelling around the 4 Quadrants of Time Management Matrix. When I was in primary school, I was in Quadrant 4 most of the time. Things were neither important nor urgent. All I wanna do was to have fun. Even during PSLE I played hard. Then when I got the results, I felt like as if I was smack right in the face.

When I went into secondary sch, I realise that sch was important as well as relationship. I realised that Sec2 was the peak of my life, the time where I was healthy and productive. I had great friends surrounding me and life was good. But I was too focus on Quadrant 2..i know what things were important and urgent. Things like grades to get to the arts stream of my choice. Then when I was in Secondary 4, I shifted into Quadrant 1 where sch was the most important thing like getting good grades to do what I set myself for. I became too focused on getting the the things done the way I expected them to be. I neglected my relationship with pple surrounding me especially my family. I achieved my mission but yet I lost the warmth n love surrounding me.

Then I moved on to poly. Another phase in life..i went back to Quadrant 3 as I got sick of being so competitive in life..i begin to look at things in an unimportant manner as I am already at the start to my goal in life. I waited till its urgent then I take action. Thats y my grades in poly wasnt as gd as its suppose to be. But I graduated n move on to realise my dream.

Opportunity came knocking at my door and I took it. Glad I did it. Worked super hard. I was back in Quadrant 1. everything to me seems important and urgent. I tried to learn as much as I can which is at times too fast. I learnt not to say NO. I took on every responsibility pushed to me. I ended up frustrated and decided to go back to quadrant 3 where things are urgent but not important. I began to look at things differently. I lost focused in personal life as I was too focused on achieving my personal goal in life, my mission, my Personal Legend which was my career. Lost a part of life as the result of that.

After a while, I realised that I need to set things rite again. Balance P/PC in my life. Slowly I reconcile with my parents and my best frens. Goin back slowly into Quadrant 2 but stil stuck at Quadrant 3 most of the time. then I realised that I needed more out of my job. I started off thinking that its my career but somehow I realised tat due to the bad relationships, it turns out to be jus a job which became mundane n boring. No more challenge for me. Thats when I decided..ok thats it. Further development is needed. I took up my dad offer of furthering my studies. I had to since financially I wasnt stable to support myself yet. Another phase in life…

Lost in the matrix again. Too many other factors influencing my time management. I realised that I wasnt as discipline as before. I needed to go back to Quadrant 2. Somehow I m so used to being the working me. I found it the biggest challenge in gettting the momentum again..in fact till now, I stil trying!

I regretted not reading the 7 habits when I was working. Yah my boss wanted us to read it after attending the workshop. But somehow, back then..my perspective was diff..i wanna learn on the job. Not focusing on getting the correct attitude, more on getting the knowledge and skills. This was the part I went wrong. But the time I realise it, it was kinda late already cos ive set myself to further sharpen my saw.

So for now, I jus need to remind myself on why im here and thank those pple who has supported me along the journey of my life. Like the previous posting I had abt the bus trip. my bus is stil travelling.

PS: hmm but definitely not to Indoroopilly..the bus station there is making me confuse..haha right Gracie?

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